Thank you so much for the prayer. I appreciate that.

Love you too.

PS: I hope you are well… Do take care!

I am praying for you both. I understand mysterious, long-term illness and separation. I will pray.

I ♥ your ♥

Let me thank all your good friends here for their prayers… merci beaucoup everybody.

Come home is the answer!

Here it is: YY10ka.

RAFT3r Thank you! And so true. LD is difficult. Both parties need to be truly committed for it to work. I pray it will work for you and your love. And me and my love.

MIGHTY My dear ading. In the end, all that we have is PRAYER. But such a powerful thing it is. I’m down on my knees. Lagi…

But… you know what… your story hit me hard. While I am glad of the connection and of the fact that you shared with me a bit of yourself, I feel sad that it didn’t work out for you (if I understood you correctly?). You have a good heart, and I think of you as a very dear friend. I wish you happiness. I know you are happy and content and secure in God’s love, but if you should fall for someone again… I pray it will work. Or even better, I pray that His plan for you will be done.

And… thank you so much for the prayer, my friend. cP and I definitely need that.

Do let me reciprocate the honor you did to me by also sharing a bit of our story: CP had been based in Europe for about 20 years now, but we are both from the Philippines; in fact, we’re both Ilokanos (one of the major linguistic groups in the country). He had been coming home every year, and it was during one of his visits home that we met. The good thing is that he is now ready to come home for good, so we don’t have a problem about who should move. The sad part is that just when he is ready to come back home, he develops an illness for which the doctors don’t have a name. An illness that prevents him from coming home without his doctors’ OK because it could cause his death.

It’s sad, by I’m holding on. We will get through this. I believe things will turn out fine… I can feel it in my heart. I can see a bright ray at the end of the tunnel he and I are in right now. My heart tells me so.

As for the ‘Hearse’

would you spend a moment or two considering the Hearse comes more from what ‘lies’ (and/or lays) INSIDE of each one of ‘us’ and not because of the ‘lies’ we sometimes feel come ‘from’ another soul/being?

I’m so glad you pointed this out, Friendster. I always try to look both externally and internally. I do believe that most of our anguish comes from the INSIDE. Our faulty perceptions, our hearts that need washing, our flesh that is so weak — these things cause our hearse in the spiritual level.

I look up to people who could look at their problem and point to themselves as the cause, instead of looking around and trying to point at other people as the reason for their wretched existence, forgetting that what happened is more likely their own doing than other people’s.

I do adhere to the thought that we could correct lots of our mistake by looking into ourselves and changing our point of view than by looking out and finding what’s wrong in others.

That said, it would now seem that what I just said and what the poem below seems to be saying are contradictory. I would like to explain that it isn’t so, but to do that I would have to explain what the poem (my meaning) is about, but that would destroy the essence of the poem. Since poems could be interpreted in so many ways, I do not wish to dwell on what I actually was referring to in the poem. As they say, the moment a poem gets published, the author’s meaning is already lost. The readers’ interpretation becomes the poem’s meaning. So, suffice it to say that the poem was actually inspired by a REAL hearse. It passed me by while I was eating lunch, and a line hit my head: The hearse that carried me to my pit.

Thanks for this one, Friendster. It’s spot on. It is only through His example that we will be able to bear and endure things. Our predicaments are nothing when compared to what He endured and bore for us. I need to keep remembering this. Thank you for reminding me… it lifted my spirit considerably.

Your last sentence is not what my flesh wanted to hear, but what my spirit NEEDED to see. I can’t thank you enough for pointing it out to me.

long distance love affairs are hard
i am in one right now

iba yun kausap mo lang sa telepono at yun kausap mo sya ng harapan, e

Now mine is saying in you i recognise a true shared Connection.

Since Oct 2000 i have been able to realte totally with your ‘experience with cP.

the reason for our separation was we grew up on different continents – half a world apart – and each had families and ties we were not ready to ’sever’ as one of us would have had to to fulfil our love as a REAL life experience and not merely one formed and continued ( and eventually ruined) through a computer and our ‘previous’ commitments/lives.

She too had developed some serious health issues but it was the ‘mental’ ones caused by our inability to meet that widened the ‘gap’ ever wider between us.

I pray for you Sherma and for your cP also.

that your Hearts grow stronger – strong enough to ‘last’ and to overcome the distance that temprarily exists between you.

And as for your ‘Hearse’…

would you spend a moment or two considering the Hearse comes more from what ‘lies’ (and/or lays) INSIDE of each one of ‘us’ and not because of the ‘lies’ we sometimes feel come ‘from’ another soul/being??

Praying, as i still know VERY well… the anguish and pain of such ’separation’ as you are enduring.

Love HOPETH all things; beareth all things; endureth all things.

His love does.. as His Children we would do well to follow such an example in our own lives and loves – by making HIM at our very centre of our being… and loving.

and not our ’self’ as we start out life by doing – and sometimes ‘lie’ to ourselves that we put ‘another’ being in that place to hide our real self-ishness that shames us so.

love,

<B.

I’m feeling better… Nailabas ko na ang masamang hangin kahapon. So, I’m much stronger now. Missing him still, of course. But I’m back to my positive-thinking self.

Thankie, thankie. Love yah!

Hello Sonnet. Yes, that’s how we’ve been getting by. Being strong. Being positive. And prayers. I just so miss him.

i love you girl!

I am holding tight. No way I’m gonna let anything to crush me. He’s that precious.

It’s kinda sad that we’re apart. But at least we are together. Apart yet together.

Far better than together yet apart.

Yeah, yeah… I’m psyching myself up.

hang in there, girl. k?